Photo Writing

This is my neighbor
his hair half gone
he has been sitting in this chair all night long
Those are his hands all balled up in a deep sadness
He just got word that his
grandson had died in the war
I can hear glass break every time he finishes a bottle

This is heart break
This is the only person who was left in his family
This is the one that cared

The old man looks up to the sky in anger
like he doesn't understand why
why do all the good people fly

History

Whenever my kids, or the next generation of kids come along I hope they don't see all the chaos. Right now there is so much fighting and hatred towards other human beings and civilizations. It's crazy how much has happened since I have been alive. I don't want my child to grow up in a world of hatred, I want my child and the future generations of kids to know that they should be who they are and be kind in this world. You shouldn't hate someone for who they are or have any fighting because it just makes us look like a horrible disgusting world and it's sad. Sometimes I feel gross because of how I see the world, but I try to readjust my thinking and only hope that things will get better. I do feel like things are starting to get better and then some days I feel that our world is getting worse. I think what everyone can do is try to have an open mind about everything and anything then the world that you see around you can at least seem a little brighter.

Photo Hunt

Something that will remind me of being here: These things because they get me everywhere.
#ihatebeinghere

Something from nature: I guess this is nature, but it's just sort of sad and gross
#ilikethewordgross

Something square: Rectangles can be counted as squares right?
#thatrectangletho

An interesting angle: The beautiful ceiling we have, so high tech that you can see through it!
#idk

Important memory: I remember seeing this wall the first week of my entire high school and wanting to be as cool as these kids.
#art 

Something round: This thing because I had to take a picture in front of it.
#idkmybffjill

A book: Multiple books  because they are everywhere.
#books4lyfe

Something that irritates me: Walking up these mountainous steps, it's like climbing a mile up a hill to get to class!
#therealgymclass

Something beautiful: This because it says beautiful and a nice decoration for the walls.
#cool

Something a kid might find interesting: I know whenever I was a kid that I couldn't wait to have a locker and now no one does and they are completely unnecessary.
#whatsinit

Someone who makes me laugh/ smile: Allie Banks can always make my day better she is one of the funniest people I know and I love her.
#mander  

Someone you would like to be more like: This dinosaur because it is bold
#rawr

Something that looks like a face: This thing because it's all I could find
#smile

Something handwritten: This lovely note on the wall
#dude #wheresmycar

Someone who has taught me something: Declue! He was my first art teacher at this school and he has helped me grow into a better artist. He is a great teacher because he encourages me!
#creepyteacherpic

Narrative Poem

Oh, all my friends are turning green


I don't know what to do


All I can do is scream


and think that maybe I am in a dream


And I'll write your name


So I won't forget you


but you will have forgotten me
 
all what is left of me is gone
 
and you don't care


you just walk on.

Scrambled lyrics

I got a lump in my throat because


You're the only thing I wanna touch


And I can't sweep you off of your feet


you're the cure, you're the pain


they'll tell you I'm insane


when your legs don't work like they used to before


let me take you past our satellites


you're the light, you're the night


 place your head on my beating heart


and darling I will be loving you 'til we're 70

101 things about me

1. I work at Vanity
2. I love fashion
3. I love peanut butter
4. I love Starbucks
5. I love sushi
6. Led Zeppelin is my favorite band
7. I also like Best Coast
8. I love orange roses
9. they remind me of my grandma
10 I can't ride a bike
11. I love ankle boots
12. I like beards
13. my cat is the cutest
14. I collect cat whiskers
15. I think I'm boring
16. I take pictures
17. I have a fashion blog
18. I go to Starbucks for the cute boys
19. I walk around Target for fun
20. I go downtown to see bands play
21. I wash my hair everyday
22. I'm 18 and I feel so much older
23. I can't wait to get married
24. I love warm weather
25. One time I met this guy that wore lipstick
26. he asked for my number
27. I gave it to him and he ever called me
28. #rejected
29. I really like my eyebrows
30. I strive to look nice everyday
31. If I look like garbage I feel so insecure
32. Going to school makes me sad
33. I can't wait to graduate
34. I feel like myself on the weekends at my job
35. I'm around creative people that like to be around me
36. I feel no judgment
37. I like being by myself
38. but I'm afraid of being alone my whole life
39. The thought is so scary and sad to me
40. I like to go on walks with my dad
41. I only know one other person named jane
42. I like being the only one
43. I like watching movies
44. I hate spiders
45. and close minded people
46. I like the color blue
47. and I like my nails black
48. My manager is like a sister/ soul mate to me
49. I feel like people hate me sometimes
50. I just get weird vibes from people
51. I don't like going to church
52. It makes me uncomfortable
53. I try not to eat dairy
54. cheese especially
55. I want to be a vegan
56. but I'm not
57. Instead of baby fever, I always get cat fever
58. I don't really like kids
59. My mom has a daycare though
60. I don't like sports
61. I don't like sweat pants
62. I hate the winter
63. I wish that I had a british accent
64. a boy asked me to a square dance in fourth grade
65. cutest thing ever
66. When I get sad or whatever I don't talk
67. If I didn't have coffee my life would be sad
68. I like the person I am
69. people annoy me
70. I got voted most original style
71. It was the sweetest thing ever
72. When I am at school I feel like a different person
73. When I don't have school I watch soap operas with my mom
74. I wish I had infinite amounts of money to buy clothes
75. I HATE driving
76. I wish I didn't have to
77. I want to be a fashion blogger
78. I also want to be a brand ambassador or something involving fashion
79. Chocolate chip cookies are a weakness
80. I hate getting gas, the thought of going makes me angry
81. I like being pale, I feel beautiful
82. My best friend is Leigh
83. We have known each other since first grade
84. I will eat endless amounts of breadsticks
85. If you go "huntin" I won't give you the time of day
86. btw I hate country music
87. I like jelly sandals
88. I want to move out of Missouri someday
89. There are clothes everywhere in my room
90. On the walls, in drawers, everywhere
91. I feel gross for having a lot of clothes sometimes
92. But most days I feel like I have nothing to wear
93. I feel so lazy
94. there are people younger than me that have accomplished way more
95. I hate wearing pants
96. So I usually don't
97. I prefer leggings, dresses, shorts
98. Jean jackets are always a life saver
99. and so is hairspray/ dry shampoo/ hats
100. I like foreign films
101. I am really particular about what I post on my instagram

Favorite songs and lyrics

One of my all time favorite songs is
Going to California by: Led Zeppelin
The lyrics are amazing
"Someone told me there's a girl out there, with love in her eyes and flowers in her hair."
I think it's an amazing beautifully written song.


Better Girl by: Best Coast
Anything by them is real and if you are going through hard times, I feel that the songs can be truly powerful.


Constant Headache by: Joyce Manor
I love listening to anything like them when I need something to block everything out, or when I'm angry it all just goes away.


Feel it all around by: Washed out
It's a great summer song and their songs are so relaxing and mellow.


Money, Power, Glory by Lana Del Rey
I love all her music and I feel like it has a lot of deeper meaning. Her songs make me feel powerful at times and she is my queen so of course I love her.


Pretty Girls Make Graves by: The Smiths
This was the first song I ever heard from them and it is the song that really tied me into them and made me fall in love their music and make me want to listen to more.


Lovesong by: The Cure
Who doesn't love the cure? But really all of their music makes me happy, and this song fills me with hope.


Heart of Gold by: Neil Young

Probably another one of my favorites, it makes me think of things that make me happy, and a life that is whimsical and wonderful.

These are just some I could think of